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Top Foods to Eat for Weightloss

I absolutely adored our short trip to New Orleans last week. While traveling, I gave myself the privilege of being less strict on my diet and just enjoy my trip. Doing this did not come without consequences. I typically weigh in on Fridays but since we were traveling that day, I weighed in on Saturday and rather than losing any weight for the week, I ended up gaining .6 lbs. This is due to the lax on tracking my diet, and the numerous sweets and alcoholic drinks I allowed myself.

I’m not even mad about it! It’s not everyday that I have family visit, or that I travel to New Orleans, so I’m going to enjoy a could margaritas and beignets. Now the hard part is returning home and jumping back on the wagon. The first few days were a challenge. My appetite was higher than usual but I did my best to curb it through snacking on fruits and vegetables. On the bright side, my daily weigh ins reminded me I was making right choices and I could count on a loss for my official weigh in, and I met my goal of losing 4% of my weight in January for the dietbet I was participating in!

top-foods-to-eat-for-weight-lossTo be successful in losing weight I have found I follow a few staples in my diet that keep me satisfied because they are filling and tasty.

  1. Eggs– I eat eggs every. single. day. No I don’t have high cholesterol. No I never get sick of them. They can be made so many different ways! Scrambled, hard boiled, over easy, over medium, over hard, baked, poached… the list goes on and on.  If you follow weight watchers, one egg is 2 points so I personally prefer to take one egg and mix with 1/2 cup egg whites to make a 3pt wonder of scrambled eggs. Delicious. egg-hen-s-egg-boiled-egg-breakfast-egg-160850
  2. Quest Bars– I had a rocky start with quest bars. The first flavor I tried was cookies and cream and it was alright, but not anything to write home about. The second I had was white chocolate raspberry and it was gross. So gross. Now I powered on and fell in love with smores and double chocolate chunk. I’ve also discovered a warmed up quest bar is damn near heaven sent. I recently ordered a variety box of quest bars off amazon that had 18 different flavors. I haven’t tried them all yet, but some new favorites include banana nut muffin and blueberry muffin.img_7568
  3. Poultry– I don’t do red meat very often. Not because I don’t like it, but because poultry like chicken and turkey is a leaner meat with less fat and therefore healthier and easier for our bodies to digest. To make things easy on myself, I’ll cook a bulk amount of chicken on the weekend to help get me through the week. It can be used in lunches or dinners. I’ll use different toppings like bbq sauce, teriyaki sauce or other spices to give it variety. pexels-photo-262945
  4. Halo Top– I am such an ice cream addict. I’ve also become quite the chocaholic. combine the two and I’m weak in the knees. Thank goodness for Halo Top. Halo Top is a brand of ice cream that is becoming ever more popular which is a great thing, because that means it’s going to be available in more places. When I lived in Delaware it was NOWHERE. Now I can get it at the commissary or Publix in Florida. And word on the street is it’s available at costco now too. I love the chocolate and the mocha chip, and the lemon cake, and the strawberry, and the mint chip…actually there isn’t a flavor I’ve met that I didn’t like. Halo Top is love.16473835_1131420806984018_4418118659173994676_n
  5. Bananas and apples– I eat a banana every morning if I have one. And then I’ll have an apple or applesauce for a snack in between breakfast and lunch. They say you need to be careful with fruit because of the natural sugars, but this routine keeps me full, it’s tasty, and I tend to continue to lose weight steadily. banana-tropical-fruit-yellow-healthy-39566

So these are the food staples that work for me. What are some of your go-tos to keep you on track? If you don’t have any, feel free to test out some of mine!

Update on my current weightloss:

Week 4: I gained .6 lbs. Thanks Obama.

Week 5: I lost 2 lbs, bringing the total since Jan.3 to 9.8 lbs lost, and from my heaviest weight ever 46.6 lbs. Woohoo for getting back on track!

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When Weight Loss and Real Life Collide

when-weightlossI’ve been back on the wagon now for 24 days. Last week I was down 8.4 lbs since Jan. 3, and 45.2 lbs since my heaviest recorded weight. Those first three weeks were relatively easy. Maybe easy isn’t the best word, I still had to put in the work. I tracked all the food I ate and I exercised almost everyday, if not multiple times a day. But in those three weeks, I didn’t have too many temptations to get off track, just a dinner out here, or a bbq there. Cue this week.

This week my brother in law came to visit and I am so glad he did! We took him around to show him Pensacola Lighthouse, the National Museum of Aviation, Pensacola Beach, downtown Pensacola, and we did an escape room with a group of friends. I loved being able to show him around our new city and of course we also wanted to take him to some great eats as well, because um…. hello food is amazing! So since we’re in the south, of course we had to get BBQ from Brother’s BBQ and then we went to a little seafood place in Pensacola Beach called Shaggy’s. Ultimately I did not go crazy going out to eat at these places. I didn’t eat any of the bread at the BBQ joint, and I had shrimp tacos at Shaggy’s… to go with my margarita and whiskey with coke and sprite. That was the first time I’ve had soda in….. I couldn’t even tell you. I so seldom have soda I don’t remember the last time I did.

You probably don’t really care too much about the food I had, or maybe you do because who doesn’t love food! My point is that life is going to happen. Circumstances are going to come up that interfere with your typical schedule, and we need to learn to continue living and how to navigate them so we stay on track towards our goals. So how does one manage eating out when trying to lose weight and get healthier?

  1. Plan ahead– If you know where you’re going out  to eat, prior to getting there- get online and research if their menu is available. Then you can pick what you’re going to order ahead of time. This will give you the opportunity to make sure your other meals are super good choices in the event that you’re going to splurge a bit on your meal out. Or you can pick something healthy and then when you’re at the restaurant, don’t look at the menu again. The temptation to veer off course could be too great and you may regret it later.unknown
  2. Box it up– When placing your order, ask the waitress to bring you a box with your food. Portion sizes at restaurants tend to be larger than typical. I’ve told myself that I’m only going to eat half of my food, but then in the midst of eating and socializing and eating more, I end up eating a lot more than what I originally planned. This doesn’t happen if I box up half of it before I start eating. Out of sight. Out of mind.too-full-to-take-another-bite-not-enough-left-for-doggy-bag
  3. Let go of your old faithfuls…most of the time– We all have them. Our go to dishes we absolutely adored, and binged on, and we know how absolutely horrendous they are to our health. To truly get healthy we need to let go of some of these temptations. When I would go out to eat I would always always always order either a shrimp or chicken alfredo. It’s my favorite. But I know how unhealthy it is and so I have learned to make better choices when I go out, because even if I eat a modest portion, it’s still not as healthy or filling than if I get something else. Now I haven’t banned alfredo pasta altogether. I’ve learned how to make alternative healthy dishes for it at home that will satisfy my craving, or I’ll allow myself to order it at a restaurant once or twice a year. No one’s perfect.unknown-1
  4.  Healthy alternatives– I get it, that pasta and that burger you’ve been ordering at restaurants is so tasty and you’re a creature of habit and it’s super tempting to keep with what you know. But I got fat and unhealthy by repeating dietary choices that are not healthy. If you want major results, we need to commit to major changes! Finding alternatives that still satisfy you, but aren’t 3000 calories for one meal are an excellent way to start. Find some healthy alternatives that work for you. Grilled chicken instead of fried chicken? Vegetables instead of potatoes? Salad instead of bread?ab3nzx2_700b
  5. Guilt-Free– Let go of the guilt. So you went out to eat and didn’t have a plan. So you went out to eat and didn’t stick to the plan. So you went out to eat more than once, or twice. So you went out to eat and had an appetizer, entree, and dessert. This is life! Don’t feel guilty and beat yourself up about it. Just get back on the wagon as soon as you can. And DO NOT tell yourself, you’ll get back on the wagon on Monday… unless it’s already Sunday night. Start with your very next meal. You’ll be thanking yourself later.

Life happens. It’s going to be near impossible to make every meal you eat perfect. So do what’s best for you and have a plan, that can really be my best advice. Correction: my best advice is to love your body first, then have a plan.lyb

I will have to give an update on any weightloss or weight gain for this week at a later date. We’re in New Orleans, and while I debated bringing my scale with me, I ultimately decided it would be weird and left it at home.

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Not your Typical Millennial: Choosing to be Intentional

courtesy-of-6Twenty-eight years. I’ve spent twenty eight years and some months becoming the person I am today. It’s funny how I have always thought I had my life together. I’ve had to be an adult for as long as I can remember. I started working (on the sly) when I was 11 at a convenience store my mom managed. I didn’t get paid, but she still got in some trouble for that when the supervisor found out. Fast forward to my first legit job at 14 working at McDonalds. I’ve worked for Dominos, Claire’s Accessories, back to McDonalds where I became a shift manager, multiple banks, multiple schools, and even running my own little business selling desserts. All throughout high school and college I worked full-time, and at one point I was doing school full-time, work full-time, and a part-time job.twitter-work-work-work-ahafgeidbdveisnaidhbejdisb-work-work-573277

I have a habit of trying to stay just under being overwhelmed. Which is why I was shocked when I was faced with the brutal truth that I’m considered to be part of the millennial generation, and I. was. appalled. Every time you hear about millennials it’s made out to be synonymous with entitled, lazy, overly sensitive children. So I was very distraught to be lumped into that category. And it didn’t really make sense to me. I’m not anything special. A majority of the people I know my age are very hard workers, and like me, have worked or do work multiple jobs. I think we should split up this millennial category a bit. Because I get around a younger 20 something and I don’t feel many similarities between our two upbringings or lifestyles. But that’s neither here nor there.courtesy-of-7

My point is, I’ve always felt very put together and like I had my shit on track. But something has happened the last couple months since turning twenty eight. I’ve started to really feel more clarity in who I am as a person, my values, what I stand for and believe in, who I want to be and where I want to go. And it makes me realize that younger me was just basically playing life and going through the motions. I was getting a college degree because I wanted to make a liveable wage, I wanted to feel accomplished and successful. I did what felt right at the time. I was getting a degree to be a teacher. And at the time it felt right, or at least I thought it did. Maybe getting a business degree or a journalism degree would’ve felt right too. I probably should have explored my options more because now I have a three degrees and three teaching certifications and have no interest in entering a classroom again. Buuuuutttt I have those pretty student loans to remind me that I paid a lot of money for a piece of paper with my name and and a sticker on it. Hmmmm. Maybe I am a millennial.

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I make it rain on my loan holders.

One degree wasn’t enough though, because even when I started teaching and I thought, maybe I don’t want to teach forever, I continued on to get my master’s degree in school counseling. And my how those student loans very quickly skyrocketed when paying for master’s levels courses. But I didn’t think about it, because I wanted that larger, more impressive piece of paper. And now I have it! And it’s framed, and sitting in a box right now, because I refuse to fully decorate a house I will only be living in for a few months. And I also don’t think it’s fair, or wise, or probably even realistic to find a job as a school counselor when I’ll be moving in a few months.

Even if we weren’t going to be moving soon, I still feel I’ve found a better connection with writing. And while doing research for a few posts this week, I came across another blogger who wrote about being intentional with her use of social media this year. And it really spoke to me, because I feel like intentional is exactly how I see myself now. I don’t want to just go through the motions, I don’t want to survive through the week to live on the weekends. I want to be intentional in a variety of aspects throughout my life. So what does intentional look like for me now?

  1. Career– I’ve always been very job-oriented, and career-driven. And I don’t necessarily want to change that, but I’m definitely pursuing it in a different way. I have this obsession with finishing things that I start. And I think that’s why I have a masters in education. I started my degree in education and by golly I was going to go all the way come hell or high water! And I don’t want to do that anymore. I want to be intentional with my career choices that fulfill me professionally, personally, and can make an impact in others. And while the idealist me would like to say-no matter what the compensation is, the realist me says-you’ve got bills to pay (thanks student loans). So I need to make a way for this writing gig to pay. Writing has connected with me in a way that teaching never will, so my pursuit from here will be taking my writing and finding a way to pay the bills with it. Intentionally step out of my comfort zone of banking, or teaching, or school counseling and truly set my sights on what I want to do. Oh fuck, it’s intimidating. Eh, I swear too much to be surrounded by kids anyways. f6e57fd72fcbf51feff9e60fe0d95184
  2. Social Media– I check social media a god awful amount. Sometimes I feel like my eyes are crossing from staring at a tiny screen. Anyone else scroll through their newsfeed until they have seen every new post, just to refresh so you can see the new ones that rolled in while you were scrolling? I’m going to be much more intentional with my social media usage going forward. Not to cast a dark shadow on the big bad demon of social media, it’s just, I can probably be doing something much more productive with my time. So I’m going to limit my social media usage to two times a day, with a time limit on how long I’ll be catching up. To make this work, I’m going to get rid of all those useless pages I currently follow- Do I really need to like Walmart’s page, or Dominos? No. So this way I truly can focus on staying connected with family and friends. courtesy-of-8
  3. Diet and Exercise– So I started this at the beginning of the year and I’m going to continue it, because even after only two weeks of healthy eating and exercise, I already feel a thousand times better! I’m going to be intentional about what I am eating. In case you didn’t know processed food is crap and really bad for you. So let’s try to stick to lean meats, fruits and vegetables as best as we can, k? K. And exercise. I’m finally getting my exercise regimen into a schedule that works for me. I’ll be sharing more about it on Friday’s post. 0e7c931b14166d183ec643e942a37914
  4. Free time– This is something I need to work on. I want to be more intentional with how I spend my free time. It ties in with the social media piece though. Currently all my free time is spent scrolling through Facebook or Instagram; however, with limiting my time with these apps, I’m going to finally allow myself the time to do some of the things I tell the strangers I do. You know how your dentist or someone will ask you what are your hobbies or what do you like to do? Normally I have no idea how to answer this, because who has hobbies anymore? It’s sad. I’ve gotten so tied to my phone, I’m such a liar when I finally spew out reading or knitting or some other super cool hobby that I have. Oh you don’t think knitting is cool? Psh. Wrong. But I haven’t knitted in probably years! So bye bye Facebook, and hello knitting needles! Or the books that just became available from the library on my kindle. Or how about all that traveling I claim I want to do? Let’s do that instead! So sorry Netflix, but I’m about to get all bookish and artsy AF. tumblr_ndannigsdv1qcy5a2o1_5001
  5. Marriage– My husband is about to become super busy with flight school, but right now we have some down-time while he waits to class up for part of his training. So rather than scrolling through Facebook, I’m going to instead be intentional with spending time with him while I can, doing all the things we both love, him outdoorsy stuff, me traveling and experiences. We cute.untitled-2524

This ended up being a longer post than I originally intended. And it almost feels like all those New Years Resolutions people set. New Year, New Me! Hopefully you’re still with me. Of course you are! If you weren’t you’d miss out on this awesome picture of my cat:img_7282

But seriously, intentional. Intentionality. Intentionalism. Let’s be a little bit more purposeful about how we choose to spend our time. Do you feel like you’re just going through the motions?

“Do not stay in a mistake because you’ve spent a lot of time or money making it.”

I’ll say it again:courtesy-of-9

And if you find yourself hitting your late twenties, or thirties and you realize you don’t want the same things you did when you were 18 or 20. Don’t be afraid to change. Yes it’s important to be responsible, I’m not saying drop the ball on your family and stop paying your bills. But don’t be afraid to change because it will be hard. Fuck yeah it’ll be hard. That’s what makes it worth it.

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Eat food. Lose weight. A Recipe for Weight loss

this-is-me-eating-food-and-still-losing-weightIt’s a new year, and a lot of people start thinking about their health and make a resolution to lose weight or improve their fitness. Along with all of these “New Year, New Me” pals, are the critics. The ones with their negative nancy comments about new, fat people at the gym, or how it’ll only last for a couple weeks before it’s back to old habits. To these people, I say, how dare you? Get off your high horse and celebrate that someone has good intentions, or is taking steps to be a healthier, happier them. And I’d like to wrap it up with a big, you can fuck off. Who gives two figs if they’re only doing it because it’s a new year. And to those of you who made your resolutions and are making a commitment to do whatever it is you want to do, you’ve got this and you’re going to prove all the skeptics wrong! Allow me to not only join you, but help.

I’ve talked about the five steps I took to losing 40 lbs over the summer. You can read about it here. I also embellished on the importance of tracking your weightloss with a super handy FREE Spreadsheet here. Now let’s chat about food.

Lawd how I love the food. And it took some getting use to, but I found some really awesome ways to still enjoy my food, but lose weight at the same time.

  1. Plan. Plan. Plan. Those who fail to plan are planning to fail. So what was super helpful to me over the summer, and again over the past two weeks I’ve been back on the wagon, is planning my food for the week ahead of time. Every meal. Every snack. That way two things happen: I’m never hungry, and I don’t fly by the seat of my pants and end up eating something fattening and unhealthy, but convenient. Here is my schedule and you can download it FO’ FREE HERE! and then customize it to you, because you might not want to eat a quest bar everyday like me. screen-shot-2017-01-12-at-6-40-01-pm
  2. Don’t go hungry. Did I mention I’m never hungry? I mean it. I stick to a schedule and even if I’m not hungry, I eat, so that way I don’t GET hungry. And I lost weight. I lose weight. Present tense, because I’m back on the wagon. I’ve learned that if I let myself get hungry, then I’m much more likely to grab whatever is convenient or to overeat at my next meal. So while it may seem unwise to eat when you’re not really hungry, follow the plan.
  3. The same, but for less. This became like a game for me. I wanted to still eat some of the yummy foods I love, but make healthier versions of them. Like pizza. I LOVE pizza. Instead of getting it from a restaurant or falling back on the old Red Baron, I started to make it myself. I’ve mentioned before that I follow weight watchers. So I went all crazy lady at the grocery store scanning items into my app to see which ingredients I could find for lesser points. So I went from having one slice of pizza from Papa John’s for 11 points, to an entire pizza for 12 points. I call that WINNING!www-listfiveblog-com
  4. Substitutions. My second love is ice cream. Actually ice cream is my first love, pizza is the side chick. So I again scanned every item in the freezer section to find the lowest point ice cream. The answer is Arctic Zero. And then I moved and was able to get Halo Top in my life. And I will. Never. Be. The. Same. Again. Halo Top reigns supreme. Seriously. Find it at a store near you.www-listfiveblog-com-2
  5. Let it go. There were some things that unfortunately just could not be replaced though. And I had to ask myself. Is this really worth it? Is this brownie, or cheeseburger, or snickers bar really worth all the downsides of what fat feels like? More often than not, the answer was no. So I let it go. Forever. And I didn’t miss it then. And I don’t miss it now. Some things you just have to let go.www-listfiveblog-com-3

Food is amazing. Healthy food is even more amazing. I seriously feel a thousand times better when I stick to my plan and eat the non-processed, real food, over the garbage that I momentarily think the taste will be worth the heartburn, sluggishness, and fat that accumulates on my stomach, ass and thighs. I’m seriously so excited to see where I will be in a few months time. And I’m going to do it without sacrificing my love for the food.

Update on my current weightloss:

Week 1: I lost 5.6 lbs. I contribute this big loss mostly to the over drinking of fireball, wine, and strawberry-ritas that happened on New Years. But I also stuck to my eating plan all 7 days and getting in over 12,000 steps 4/7 days. This was done through running and dance fitness at home.

Week two: I lost 1.4 lbs. I get to put my money where my mouth is this week. Despite not losing as much as I would have liked, I’m not going to let it get me down. I stuck to my eating plan all 7 days, and I need to work on getting in more steps and workouts if I want to improve my fitness. I worked out 5/7 days. This was done through running and dance fitness and I finally added in swimming too.

This is me looking disheveled after a few workouts.

The next before and after pic will make the bitches go even more wild than the first one did.

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Tracking Weightloss- Why I Did NOT Ditch the Scale

Non-Scale Victories. Weightwatchers has this really great component to their program they are marketing right now called non-scale victories #nsv. This is when you look to other successes outside of how much you weigh to validate your journey to being healthier. This could be accomplishing a fitness goal or fitting into a smaller clothing size or making a better nutritional choice. These things are super important because as I mentioned in my last weightloss post, What Fat Feels Like, you are more than the number in your pants or the number on the scale.3dd

However, this is where I could probably be called a hypocrite. Even though I am aware that the number on the scale does not define me, I love seeing that number go down. And as long as I don’t go all psycho and manic depressive if it goes up, I think tracking weight loss is important and also a key factor to my success over the summer. I weighed my self everyday, sometimes (ok most of the time) multiple times a day. But before you’re all like, that’s not healthy- hear me out.

  1. It encouraged me to eat-Weighing myself everyday didn’t make me skip meals. It didn’t make me hate myself if it was higher than the previous day. It taught me that your weight is going to be your weight regardless of if you eat that meal or not, so eat it. Don’t starve yourself because you think it’ll make the scale say some magical number that will make you love yourself more or be comfortable in your own skin. Fun fact: I found my weight was lower at 11am after eating and drinking than it was first thing after that lovely morning pee. So eat your damn food. 10793014
  2. Point number two on why I can’t ditch the scale: I like numbers. In case you didn’t notice I write everything in lists. That are numbered. Because numbers, like hips, don’t lie.  It’s not like writing where someone might not think you are funny, and they’re probably right. Numbers aren’t up for debate or anyone’s interpretation. So guess what, when I follow my own advice and stick to the weight loss plan that works for me, those numbers go down.hey-girl-i-like-the-way-you-work-those-numbers
  3. Preparation-I hate being weighed at the doctor office. I hate it because I have on like ten pounds of clothes, their scales are wrong, I can feel the judgement of the nurse(probably not), their scales are wrong, my clothes now weigh twenty pounds, and damn it their scales are wrong. When I weigh myself regularly at home, this isn’t so much of a shock at the doctor office. There have even been times when I got away with just telling them my weight rather than being forced to step on their very wrong scale.its-weigh-day-161386
  4.  Science- I didn’t know this until I started writing this post, but there are actually studies and research that shows people are more successful with weightloss and maintaining weightloss when they weigh themselves daily. I think you put less stock in the numbers on the scale when you do weigh yourself daily and there’s less of a dissatisfaction when the number is higher than the previous day, because you know it will go the other direction if you stick to the plan. When you only weigh in weekly or not at all, that number means more, and the temptation to stop weighing yourself to avoid disappointment is much greater. I’m not a doctor or a scientist, but these people are and you can read all about it here and here and here and here and other places too I’m sure.

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    Not so scary when you see it everyday.
  5. Best point ever- I lost weight. You know when I don’t lose weight? You know when I GAIN weight? Coincidentally when my scale gets dusty from being unused. Everyone is different and I need the daily reminder and validation on if I’m making the right choices in my diet and fitness.

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    Did I mention this is how I weigh myself?

So there it is. *raises hand* My name is Carlie and I weigh myself everyday. Do I recommend it for you? You know you better than I do. So if any of the points I listed above spoke to you, then give it a go. If it works, high five! If it doesn’t, high five for knowing yourself and recognizing it’s not working for you! You need to find what works for you.

Part of the success is tracking though. I don’t record my daily weight anywhere, but I do record a weekly weigh in for two reasons. I like to have an idea of when I can be at a certain goal, and I like to see success in working towards that goal. So I made a spreadsheet. Spreadsheets are my second love. Check it out:screen-shot-2017-01-04-at-4-40-46-pm

So this spreadsheet does all the work for you! Just input your starting weight in cell B2 and C2 and all the goal weights will automatically adjust to a loss of two pounds a week. Example:screen-shot-2017-01-04-at-4-42-03-pm

Each week on weigh in day, all you need to do is input your actual weight. Let’s say it’s weigh in day and it’s a perfect world and you lost two pounds!! Woohoo! Go you! This is what your spreadsheet would look like:screen-shot-2017-01-04-at-4-45-38-pm

Pretty nifty right? I think it’s so fabulous I’d like to share it with you! How do you access this awesome spreadsheet? Simply click here, you can download your very own and start tracking your success!

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What Fat Feels Like

Fat. Fluffy. Overweight. Obese. Chubby. Thick. Plus size. Chunky. Husky. Plump. The list goes on and on. There is a huge movement right now to eliminate fat shaming and acceptance of everyone’s bodies. And for all the men and ladies out there who are comfortable with their size – you go girls! Work it!14d47176edb9e37d79530d692143a701

I’m super impressed by Ashley Graham’s #beautybeyondsize promotion. It’s 100% true that you do not have to be a certain size to be beautiful or healthy. I am more active and “in shape” than some people who are half my size. And there are people who are larger than me who are healthier than I am. The number on the scale and in your pants does not define you. Health is so much more than numbers. Health is a feeling. Feeling of strength. Feeling of happiness. Feeling of being comfortable in your own body. Feeling of being able to ‘drop it like it’s hot’ and pick it back up again.

There are days when I will be super ok with my appearance, you know how you’ll wake up and just feel thin? You’ll look in the mirror and be like, Hot Damn! Not bad. Not bad at all. Yeah there are those days. But when I was at my heaviest weight, those days were very few and far between. Probably like never actually. This was part of my motivation to finally make some serious lifestyle changes. And those lifestyle changes worked! If you want to know what I did to lose almost 60 pounds you can read about it here.

And here’s that before and after bitches love: img_7273

Even though I wasn’t at my ultimate goal weight or size, I was in better shape than I ever have been in my adult life. And I got a little conceited and unempathetic to people struggling to lose weight. (Don’t virtually punch me in the dick here). I did it, so why couldn’t they? It’s really not that hard. If they would just TRY, they could lose weight. Well then I got the swift kick in the face that I deserved. I gained back 15 pounds. But I’m glad I did and here is why. It knocked me off my high fucking horse and reminded me that being fat is hard and no one chooses it-so stop being a judgmental douche. No one likes that guy. Don’t be that guy.

So if you’ve never been fat. Or you have and you need a reminder of what it’s like: this is what being fat felt like to me:

  1. Hungry- When I was following my weight watchers plan and eating healthy, natural foods, I never felt hungry. You know when I feel hungry? When I don’t have a meal plan and just fly by the seat of my pants. I end up eating junk and then I’m hungry again in a few hours, hell even minutes. Not to mention the more you eat the more your stomach stretches leaving you feeling hungry sooner. So the more you eat, the more often you’re going to feel hungry, leading you to eat more. Talk about a vicious circle. This is not scientifically proven, actually maybe it is, I don’t know, I’m not a doctor or a scientist. This is just what it feels like and it makes sense to me. e06c10956baebbc3983cafec570c7b6f6f9a151450bf65dcae9022e9db8b8fab
  2. Uncomfortable- You’re uncomfortable in your clothes because they’re either too tight, or fit here and then are huge in other places. No brand or style fits right. You’re uncomfortable in a bathing suit because, well because you’re in a bathing suit. You’re uncomfortable naked because your skin is touching your skin, they’re called rolls and they’re a constant reminder that you hate yourself and are never going to eat again- as you scavenge your pantry and refrigerator. You’re uncomfortable sitting because your pants are cutting into your stomach, or you’ve pulled your waistband up over your gut so there’s not a double roll. It’s suuuuuper stylish. You’re uncomfortable standing because while you were sitting your shirt rolled up, your pants shifted down-despite having pulled them up over the gut, so now you have to adjust every article of clothing you’re wearing to try to deceive the eye into a body shape you do not possess. You’re uncomfortable laying down because you have heartburn and indigestion from the shit food you’ve eaten, your fat is creating rolls that aren’t how you look in your mind’s eye, and your boobs are suffocating you if you’re laying too flat. I could go on.
  3. Heartburn- I mentioned the heartburn, but it deserves it’s own number. Everything gives you heartburn. Antacids have become your dessert. Well second dessert after you eat first dessert. 4400239
  4. Out of shape- Oh like you can’t run a mile under 15 minutes? No bitch. Like you can’t walk a mile. You can’t comfortably bend over to tie your shoes or pick something up off the floor. You can’t bend your leg and pull it close enough to paint your toes all at once, you either do a couple toes at a time, or if you let your leg fall to the side to make room for your stomach you can make that shit work. Your feet hurt, and your arms fall asleep if they’re bent for too long because your fat is cutting off the blood flow. 
  5. Tired- Despite having done zero physical activity to warrant being tired, being lethargic breeds more lethargy. It’s like that being hungry cycle. motivation-level-lazy-puppy

It’s not easy being fat. All of these things you endure are exhausting and much harder to deal with than diet and exercise. And I needed that reminder so I can stop making choices that lead to being uncomfortable in my own body, it’s the only one I get. So here is to taking the easy route-making an eating plan, scheduling my exercise and activity, kicking ass and taking names. Because life is hard enough without making it harder on myself by being fat.

Oooooh time to make another list!

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